Alittle about me, before and after.

Life for me before I became a Christian lacked certainty. I spent years searching for something to fill the void in my heart and only found temporary fulfillment in sin, such as gossip, sex, lying, smoking, cursing, telling and listening to dirty jokes, and possessions. In doing all of these things, my life rendered meaningless and without purpose. I realize now that in trying to fulfill that void, I sought a reason for my existence, my life; a reason for life in general. I would ask myself, "Why am I here?" Lost and in the dark, I lived a directionless lonely life full of depression and emptiness.

I had tried in many ways to connect with God, through prayer, reason, bargaining, coaxing, and even threats if He didn't answer my prayers. Nothing ever came of all the insignificant endeavors except for seemingly boundary less emptiness. I had some thought of joining a small church right down the road from where I lived. Of course, I had no intentions of accepting what God had to offer: His awesome gracious plan of salvation, which is in the death and resurrection of His Son Jesus Christ. It surfaced from my own desire for a feeling of safety, security, peace, and comfort. I, however, never did make it to that church and probably never would have, due to procrastination and fear. As chance has it, an opportune happed upon me to meet a girl by going to church with her. Her father, the pastor, introduced me to Jesus, and from that day forward, I've been a Christian. Her family took me in, so to say, and treated me graciously. I'm thankful for that.

Living the life of a Christian for about six years now, I look upon the time when I lived without God and I realize the differences of who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. I am now burden-free and completely fulfilled. My life has meaning, purpose, and reason. God changed me from living a self-centered, arrogant life to becoming a self-sacrificing humble child of God. Jesus opened my heart and eyes and revealed the Light of the Truth to me. My sin had been forgiven and it had nothing to do with what I have done except by surrendering my life to Christ and acknowledging Him as my Lord and Saviour. My purposeful, eternally promised life became what it is now only by the amazing grace of God, and by no other means. Although my life is not completely burden-free, God provides ways and means for me to persevere. God has filled me with love, given me direction and guidance and hope and faith, He has comforted me, given me strength and perseverance, provided deliverance and saved me from death. He has laid upon me peace and joy and worth. I am found and no longer blind.